It’s been a lil minute since I’ve written here but I’ve been very busy filming, working, auditioning for HUGE casting directors, and recharging my batteries/feeding my soul/going to church. I’ve been thinking about you guys a lot though. I kept thinking back to a year ago when I wrote the article “The Burnout” on here. I’ve gained sooo much insight and clarity lately about that time in my life. I remember exactly how I felt at the time: I was stressed out, tired, unmotivated, and living in a toxic relationship. My… have things changed. I feel like myself again and I live alone now – happily.
Everyday I feel recharged and grateful. I live on Hollywood Blvd. in LA, drive my dream car, eat organic and natural foods, have God in my life, audition for big projects every week, film a lot, and my relationship with my mother and father has improved. I’ve healed a lot of deep wounds & issues and I feel thankful everyday that I have overcome such negativity. I realize I am living my dream.
Last year, my ex I was living with was stunting my growth (I was in fact outgrowing him and he pointed this out first actually), he was being way too judgmental and critical of me, I was doubting myself, overworking myself to please someone who kept moving the goal posts and laughing at my frustration (narcissists do that), feeling under appreciated, and in a bit of a negative mental place. The enemy was busy and I was exhausted. Of course, I did not see the brunt of all this while I was in the thick of it. I started writing here a lot more because I needed an outlet for how I felt and for my thoughts.
I started Mental Luxury to express myself and share my vision. I’m so happy I did because looking back, I now see what I was truly enduring. And it also gives me a sense of where I’m going. Starting Mental Luxury gave me my confidence back (what I had lost of it at least) and forced me to look at the Big Picture. I saved myself. Mental Luxury saved me. Thank you.
I’m so lucky and blessed to be able to wake up everyday in my dream apartment with my dream car, pursuing and making my dreams come true, all while being grateful and appreciative of it all. I hope I can be an inspiration to all of you. Follow your dreams. Make it happen. Keep going. There is light at the end of the tunnel.